Austin's Fatal Truth

I've openly regarded the last calendar year of my life as possibly the worst that I've faced. Twenty-five saw more time spent away from close family, the fizzling of a long-lasting relationship, loss, grief, and overall uncertainty. In a word, I'd say twenty-five just plain sucked. Though, that doesn't mean I stopped learning. In fact, I believe I learned more from April 2019 to April 2020 than I have since college! Here's twenty-six being bigger and better than the last! 

"Should" I shouldn't want you I shouldn't have gave you my all I shouldn't have let my guard down I shouldn't have soaked you in It shouldn't have gotten here It shouldn't have clouded my judgement It shouldn't have progressed so quickly You shouldn't have entertained the idea You shouldn't have shown me attention You shouldn't have loved me back It should be broken off It should be at its end It should be easy But I do

"When Push Comes To Shove" How does one know? Really know for sure Is it measured in minutes? Or what it has managed to endure? How does one tell? the two similar burns apart Does your heart pick as a whole? Or are feelings a la carte?  Only time will reveal When push comes to shove Is it love Or is it lust?

Six months ago, I would have laughed if you told me by mid 2018, I'd give up virtually everything for a job in Orlando, Florida. No way. I have always wanted to move out of Syracuse. That was one thing. I'd classify moving over one-thousand miles from friends and friends away as something completely different. The story of getting down here, bad news. Though, good news is, I'm not questioning myself on a daily basis... All the time.