Austin's Fatal Truth

"Favorite Ghost"   fell hard for you still trying to get  back up you left me broken bare and I wonder am I even a passing memory? because to me it's still  so fresh the love forever  floating there I saved it  for you because you're my favorite ghost and if this is what they call heartbreak then it's yours that hurts the most

  "In Between" Where would I go? North or South? And in which direction? East or West? How could I? Without you in between? What would I know? From left to right? And how they differ? From up to down? How could I? Without you in between? Regardless what No matter when Despite where Forget how I am only able with you in between .

   In my experience, memories of a first love can be fickle. They seem to morph with the passage of time. Sometimes, the memories glow with pristine preservation. Sometimes, they wither and fade. For me, they often come in dreams. Nonetheless, they always tend to make me happy, reminding me of carefree days gone by.

Man, life has been a rollercoaster in 2020. So much of our world has changed, seemingly never to really return to the way things used to be. As a regular working stiff, I wanted to weigh in on where I'm at through all of this and how COVID-19 has impacted my world lense.

"Should" I shouldn't want you I shouldn't have gave you my all I shouldn't have let my guard down I shouldn't have soaked you in It shouldn't have gotten here It shouldn't have clouded my judgement It shouldn't have progressed so quickly You shouldn't have entertained the idea You shouldn't have shown me attention You shouldn't have loved me back It should be broken off It should be at its end It should be easy But I do

"When Push Comes To Shove" How does one know? Really know for sure Is it measured in minutes? Or what it has managed to endure? How does one tell? the two similar burns apart Does your heart pick as a whole? Or are feelings a la carte?  Only time will reveal When push comes to shove Is it love Or is it lust?