Austin's Fatal Truth

"Favorite Ghost"   fell hard for you still trying to get  back up you left me broken bare and I wonder am I even a passing memory? because to me it's still  so fresh the love forever  floating there I saved it  for you because you're my favorite ghost and if this is what they call heartbreak then it's yours that hurts the most

"Solely" fell into  the depths only to  emerge anew my strength  my rebirth lies alone  with you.

  "In Between" Where would I go? North or South? And in which direction? East or West? How could I? Without you in between? What would I know? From left to right? And how they differ? From up to down? How could I? Without you in between? Regardless what No matter when Despite where Forget how I am only able with you in between .

"New Voicemail" groan after groan go ahead hang up that phone hear those clouds roll in hear those stars fall hear that world crumble but babe please don't let me listen alone

"This Fall" Leaves have changed And so have we Couldn't count the colors Beauty lost on me We've come so long Fought so hard I need to reconsider Clearing the yard This needs to work Because we're worth it Exactly the way we are We're perfect And if we shatter Both left scarred I won't give up, I promise To collect every shard Because I've chased you Through life's trees All our good times Can't be memories Winter's coming And summer has gone I've settled with the facts The conclusion I've drawn With the time that's passed Through life's seasons I'll always need you You're my reasons And after thinking Colors always fall in threes There's reds and yellows And there's you and me

  "Where I'm At" Maybe I'm depressed I'm spiraling Trying to smile through I think I'm making a mess Maybe it's just me I'm stressed With all these changes Feeling to an excess Maybe I'm just searching For answers I should avoid To questions I think I'm supposed to suppress And I confess I cannot blame you It's all gotten so crazy It's all so hard to digest And someday I hope we make it So we can look back At all our progress But, nonetheless I'm sorry I think It's just where I'm at

   In my experience, memories of a first love can be fickle. They seem to morph with the passage of time. Sometimes, the memories glow with pristine preservation. Sometimes, they wither and fade. For me, they often come in dreams. Nonetheless, they always tend to make me happy, reminding me of carefree days gone by.

"So, Here's to the New Year" When the restless will be put to bed When dead memories will stay dead When what's done is done and said is said. Here's to the New Year. When the messages stay read When last year's life has been lead When we stop looking back from here only ahead. Here's to the New Year. When the tears were shed When we felt misled When we accept what we can't change and move on instead. It's how we got here So, Here's to the New Year.

"Can you blame me?" Looking toward the future But you ask me to stay put Weighing the consequences You're talking inches I constantly need a foot So tired of the hot and frigid Ready to just move on  But something keeps me waiting We're beyond the introduction And the conclusion is foregone Sometimes, it feels like games You're so Guess Who? We've skipped my turn And I'm all out of guesses Not in the mood for Clue I told myself I love you But that means nothing You say you want to love me fully Are you able to commit? I bet you're bluffing And can you blame me? For being so over this You're so quick to quit Give my love away Cease and desist  Can't wait any longer This is my final plea I can't sit still anymore I'm back on my own feet Can you blame me?

"Fall From Grace" Have you ever experienced heartbreak? Of course you have We're all no strangers to hurt When love's at stake We wear our heartache on our face Smiles fade with time When we've loved and lost We've felt the fall from grace And hey, alone ain't so bad Because we know it won't last We'll just watch the hours pass us by And a few years of healing will jump up fast Though, our happiness won't wait We gotta' grab it when we have the chance Unless it isn't meant to be, for that pain we must brace Been there, done that We've felt the fall from grace And although this sounds like a country song So sad and slow I ain't much of a singer That much we both know I'm just tired of holding in Just need this pain gone They say the heart's the strongest muscle But mama always told me that it was brains over brawn And it won't be long now We kn...

"Should" I shouldn't want you I shouldn't have gave you my all I shouldn't have let my guard down I shouldn't have soaked you in It shouldn't have gotten here It shouldn't have clouded my judgement It shouldn't have progressed so quickly You shouldn't have entertained the idea You shouldn't have shown me attention You shouldn't have loved me back It should be broken off It should be at its end It should be easy But I do

"When Push Comes To Shove" How does one know? Really know for sure Is it measured in minutes? Or what it has managed to endure? How does one tell? the two similar burns apart Does your heart pick as a whole? Or are feelings a la carte?  Only time will reveal When push comes to shove Is it love Or is it lust?

For this entry, I figured I'd write out some of the life questions I've struggled with. This is one is for those late-night over-thinkers like me who go from hanging up with a loved one to rethinking your entire existence and current life situation. It sucks, but it happens to everyone, in some capacity. In order to deal with these episodes (that I've had my whole life, mind you), I'm going to attempt to explain the most common late-night thoughts that plague me, and how I attempt to talk myself through them... Especially at the least opportune time, usually around two in the morning, especially when tomorrow is going to be an early day at work!

Seeing as this is a blog, and I like to consider myself somewhat of a writer, I figured it was about time I start making use of such an outlet (instead of continually customizing it without any actual content going up). Nonetheless, here we are... finally.