Austin's Fatal Truth

"Should" I shouldn't want you I shouldn't have gave you my all I shouldn't have let my guard down I shouldn't have soaked you in It shouldn't have gotten here It shouldn't have clouded my judgement It shouldn't have progressed so quickly You shouldn't have entertained the idea You shouldn't have shown me attention You shouldn't have loved me back It should be broken off It should be at its end It should be easy But I do

"When Push Comes To Shove" How does one know? Really know for sure Is it measured in minutes? Or what it has managed to endure? How does one tell? the two similar burns apart Does your heart pick as a whole? Or are feelings a la carte?  Only time will reveal When push comes to shove Is it love Or is it lust?

      Delete me. In a world of liars, phonies, and half truths, I'd like to get real. To say that I'm fed up at this current point in my life would be a ghastly understatement... Not that anybody that even MIGHT be reading this really remotely gives a shit. Which, in a way, is good. Because, I've decided to shut most of you out of my life in many ways.

Vladimir Putin is undoubtably one of the most polarizing individuals in any government body today. From his militaristic approach of Russian nationalism, to his most humble diplomatic tendencies around the globe, President Putin is someone nearly every human on Earth has an opinion on. I am no different in this matter. I'm willing to bet that unlike most Americans, I believe President Putin to be the most important world leader in the last twenty years. If I haven't lost you yet, give me a chance to explain why... 

On the verge of going on a family vacation seems like the silliest time to realize just how minuscule my life has become. I should be excited to be on the beach, without a care in the world, for the next week. However, that isn't really the case for me. A week is nice, but that week comes and goes. Vacation for me, in July of 2017, is only a temporary fix to a more permanent problem that I've continually faced.

For this entry, I figured I'd write out some of the life questions I've struggled with. This is one is for those late-night over-thinkers like me who go from hanging up with a loved one to rethinking your entire existence and current life situation. It sucks, but it happens to everyone, in some capacity. In order to deal with these episodes (that I've had my whole life, mind you), I'm going to attempt to explain the most common late-night thoughts that plague me, and how I attempt to talk myself through them... Especially at the least opportune time, usually around two in the morning, especially when tomorrow is going to be an early day at work!